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[ Home Schooling ] Open Question : I cant go back to school?

Ive been homeschooled since november and its may now i got homeschooled because i have anxiety and my dad was trying to pull me out of the car and i said i wanted to kill myself (this is november and i really didnt want to kill myself) So then i went to a therapist and im getting homeschooled by tutors the therapist said that when im feeling better and i have the right meds i can go back to school. I HATE SCHOOL! Now all of a sudden on thursday the school called and said the therapist said your all ready to go back to school! when do you wanna go to school and my dad said monday and its too soon i feel like i actually want to die not kidding i want to run away and hide. Now everyone is saying once you go back everything will be fine . But ive been there 2 years and things are pretty crappy there, it feels like youre in a prision! Its friday and i dont know what i should do how can i tell my paretns im not ready to go back and they should call the school and tell them that? Please dont say be strong blah blah blah! I cant do it! id rather die,runaway or go to the mental hospital (& yes i know how bad it is) WHAT DO I DO? i want to cry but i have no more tears left. If i dont do anyhting, the only thing im left with is on monday when my dads going to be pulling me out of the house to go to school i will hold a knife up to my wrists, and i might actually cut myself, i know thats the only way i dont have to go to school

[ Family ] Open Question : Why do my parents hate me?

I dont really know why because i havent done anything to make them not like me. I have a older sister and a younger sister. My older sister is really mean and my mom doesnt say anything about it, she just gives her weird looks. She (my sister) has left the house with me alone and no phone to call anyone when i was 10 and she was 15. I was also asleep until our parents came home annd asked me where she was. And of course i didnt know so we had to go driving around to find her and then i spotted her by a bush. She also has had a guy come in her room and she had no clothes on (they didnt do anything). Shes done a few other things and i relize you have to forgive people which they did. And my younger sister lyies all the time on me and mymom believes it unless my older sister was there to see it. She is always talking about hurting someone but she is too small to do anything( shes 7). She wasnt originally a brat but she found out that she could do whatever she wanted without getting in trouble so she took advantage of it. I dont know if this helps or not but i dont get as many things as her on Christmas too. I dont really like christmas anyway but thats another story. Im homeschooled,14, and in some middle school grade because she doesnt teach me anything, i just have to search things on Google and cheat most of the time so sorry if my grammer is bad. I get about a average of a C+ which isnt good to me. They said i could go to high school in August which is what im going to do. I dont have any friends to talk to because they moved and we lost touch. Sorry for such a long question but i just needed someone to see this. My mom doesnt believe anything i say even if its something like “i was about to hand you a plate but my hands were full” and she just says i dont believe you. I never got to go anywhere alone with them because i always had my older or younger sister with us. Now i just stay home becaause thats the only time i get to be alone. Theres more but i dont want to keep typing and crying at the same time. Theres no one else to live with because almost all of my family fits into a certain sterotype except for my family and a few uncles.